Our deepest fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”

-anonymous

A planned GAME or just LIFE !!??

"The Gods throw the dice,and they don't ask whether we want to be in the game or not.They don't care if when you go,you leave behind a lover,a home, a career or a dream.The Gods don't care whether you have it all,whether your every desire can be met through hardwork and persistence.The Gods don't want to know about your plans and hopes.Somewhere they're throwing the dice and you get chosen.From then on,winning and losing is only a question of luck."
-Paulo Coelho.

I mean really !! Does God not really care at all . Is this all fake then . This devotion and visiting temples with love filled in our heart!! I mean I trust God and I by no means am questioning his existence but my question is

DOES HE CARE ??

I mean does he cry seeing that the man who spent more then half his life worshiping him and devoted his existence to God is in so much pain at this very moment. Does it not make him want to make things better for the poor and the helpless creatures. I mean Life is hard and we are supposed to learn the hard way.. bla . bla.. bla.. But some people really get it all easy and not the hard way and trust me they are not even that good at heart !! I mean have they learnt all there is supposed to be learnt..?? or are they simply God's special children !! I am always against partiality !! If they say that it's very important to trust in God in times of both stress and joy ... then why does an athiest still "live" a better lifestyle then the one who spends his entire life meditating and reaching the path to God !?

What we do then is simply leave the whole situation with "It was destined to happen so it happened !!" I mean really is that the answer to all these theological questions !! Then why do we even move a muscle !? huh .. if it's destined to happen it would happen !!
I mean it's not pre-destined... destiny exists if we let things take their own course and destiny still exists if we take actions for something to happen . We are conditioned to believe that it is not in our hands whereas it actually is in our hands (not every bit of it but yes some parts completely are !! )

Its not our capability that decides what kind of person we are but our decisions.

The whole point of my post is .. does this all really matter to him ..?? All these musings and devotion and goodness. Does that supreme being really care at all ?? or is he just watching a movie and crying with it with popcorns in his hand .. and as soon the movie is over he wipes out those tears and then has a good enough time with his friends over dinner ..!!
It infuriates me to think right now that "everything happens for a reason" when clearly I see no good reason at all in the kind of situation I am in !! I have not a single soul around me right now who in the least could understand what I am going through but thats oka because God makes me only suffer in a very "dear" and "special" way .Even the long discussions with my
best-est buddies is not making sense to me any more.
He has taught me ALWAYS !!
And I am always gonna continue learning ...
And in the end I would say its better to trust him and believe in yourself then put up these questions in front of him and yourself cause literally no good can come of it.

have a great day ahead :)