Note to self : Always remember ... there is light even at the end of the darkest tunnel !! :)

Lately .. I have been extremely distressed with the whole process of admissions and the new life waiting for me in the near future .. !! I did not feel ready for this new life until today morning. !! And I decided to let go of the stress and build on the foundation of hope and faith that the path I chose might not lead me exactly in an exquisite living but there will be somewhere a satisfaction of working to the best of my ability and capability !!

There was nothing that inspired me !! And then I read this quote that completely rebuilt me !!

"I have thrown my "hat" in and given it my best shot and have just as good a chance as any -- but the outcome is still up in the air.I am ready to accept what lands, sticks, misses, or hits the fan. "When it rains, it pours.""

This is my call !! I have chosen this path and am going to relish every bit of this struggle !! Nothing and no situation can bring me down !! There will be times when I would want to quit but ALWAYS REMEMBER : THERE IS LIGHT EVEN AT THE END OF THE DARKEST TUNNEL !! and nothing ..nothing at all is constant . CHANGE IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS CONSTANT !!

When my soul is deprived of inspiration I hope to find my lost inspiration in me itself !! The belief in self and faith in God are the 2 things that I need to make through the lost times in my life !! I am ready for the worst and hoping for the best !! :)

"Do not always pose and be a bore: this is a maxim for gallant bearing. You may yield a touch of dignity to gain the general good-will: you may now and then go where most go, yet not beyond the bounds of decorum." - Balthasar Gracian's "The Art of Worldly Wisdom"

Let me work ..and struggle till it is finally the time to bask in the eternal glory of remembrance and peace. Till then let me work ..and let me struggle !! And let me work for the better so that the inspiring soul never dies and keeps on feasting on the strength of faith , hope and character !! :)

-Saburi Pandit

A Thing Of Beauty ..

Let us try defining the word "beauty" : Beauty to me is something that is inspiring and yet simple and elegant . Be it a good hearted women or man , a beautifully written book or be it delectable food , the beauty of nature .. the green parks or the windy rain .. all these forms are hallmark of beauty.

Beauty is desirous and irresistible .. but the thought that engulfs me is the fact that beauty is now limited to faces and features. It is not characterised by anything other than surface beauty.. !!
Is it the surface beauty that enchants us all or is it the striking beauty of the inner being that makes us their slave.. !!??

Real Beauty is not only about looking good.. or wearing the right and expensive dresses .. Real beauty is the love and sacrifice of the parents for their children .. real beauty lies in the bond of true friendship and love .. Real beauty is not bound in societal standards and images it is above all this and is REAL in every sense .. !!

It is the purity of the heart and soul which is termed as Real beauty and not the perfect curves on a women's silhouette or the perfect color of the skin . It doesn't make sense to me why would anyone prefer beauty of the looks over the beauty of the heart!!?

For me Beauty lies in the act of goodness , irrespective of the external beauty I would always judge a person based on internal beauty . I do not condemn external beauty but I condemn it's preference over internal beauty. External beauty would fade with time but what remains is the beauty of humanity ..!!

A thing of beauty is a joy for ever
Its loveliness increases; it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.

-John Keats

These line say it all .. the joy , the sweet dreams.. beauty brings with it all the goodness of life ...!!

-Saburi Pandit

Our deepest fear

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”

-anonymous

A planned GAME or just LIFE !!??

"The Gods throw the dice,and they don't ask whether we want to be in the game or not.They don't care if when you go,you leave behind a lover,a home, a career or a dream.The Gods don't care whether you have it all,whether your every desire can be met through hardwork and persistence.The Gods don't want to know about your plans and hopes.Somewhere they're throwing the dice and you get chosen.From then on,winning and losing is only a question of luck."
-Paulo Coelho.

I mean really !! Does God not really care at all . Is this all fake then . This devotion and visiting temples with love filled in our heart!! I mean I trust God and I by no means am questioning his existence but my question is

DOES HE CARE ??

I mean does he cry seeing that the man who spent more then half his life worshiping him and devoted his existence to God is in so much pain at this very moment. Does it not make him want to make things better for the poor and the helpless creatures. I mean Life is hard and we are supposed to learn the hard way.. bla . bla.. bla.. But some people really get it all easy and not the hard way and trust me they are not even that good at heart !! I mean have they learnt all there is supposed to be learnt..?? or are they simply God's special children !! I am always against partiality !! If they say that it's very important to trust in God in times of both stress and joy ... then why does an athiest still "live" a better lifestyle then the one who spends his entire life meditating and reaching the path to God !?

What we do then is simply leave the whole situation with "It was destined to happen so it happened !!" I mean really is that the answer to all these theological questions !! Then why do we even move a muscle !? huh .. if it's destined to happen it would happen !!
I mean it's not pre-destined... destiny exists if we let things take their own course and destiny still exists if we take actions for something to happen . We are conditioned to believe that it is not in our hands whereas it actually is in our hands (not every bit of it but yes some parts completely are !! )

Its not our capability that decides what kind of person we are but our decisions.

The whole point of my post is .. does this all really matter to him ..?? All these musings and devotion and goodness. Does that supreme being really care at all ?? or is he just watching a movie and crying with it with popcorns in his hand .. and as soon the movie is over he wipes out those tears and then has a good enough time with his friends over dinner ..!!
It infuriates me to think right now that "everything happens for a reason" when clearly I see no good reason at all in the kind of situation I am in !! I have not a single soul around me right now who in the least could understand what I am going through but thats oka because God makes me only suffer in a very "dear" and "special" way .Even the long discussions with my
best-est buddies is not making sense to me any more.
He has taught me ALWAYS !!
And I am always gonna continue learning ...
And in the end I would say its better to trust him and believe in yourself then put up these questions in front of him and yourself cause literally no good can come of it.

have a great day ahead :)

Shakespeare Sonnet 141: In Faith I Do Not Love Thee With Mine Eyes

In faith I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But 'tis my heart that loves what they despise,
Who, in despite of view, is pleased to dote.
Nor are mine ears with thy tongue's tune delighted;
Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,
Nor taste, nor smell, desire to be invited
To any sensual feast with thee alone:
But my five wits nor my five senses can
Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee,
Who leaves unswayed the likeness of a man,
Thy proud heart's slave and vassal wretch to be:
Only my plague thus far I count my gain,
That she that makes me sin awards me pain.

Shakespeare Sonnet 150: O! From What Power Hast Thou This Powerful Might

O! from what power hast thou this powerful might,
With insufficiency my heart to sway?
To make me give the lie to my true sight,
And swear that brightness doth not grace the day?
Whence hast thou this becoming of things ill,
That in the very refuse of thy deeds
There is such strength and warrantise of skill,
That, in my mind, thy worst all best exceeds?
Who taught thee how to make me love thee more,
The more I hear and see just cause of hate?
O! though I love what others do abhor,
With others thou shouldst not abhor my state:
If thy unworthiness raised love in me,
More worthy I to be beloved of thee.

..GIVING & RECIEVING ..

Just a random thought ..
IS giving ... helping others .. putting others before you ..being selfless... a better feeling ... or just being on the other side ..asking for help ....being selfish in a normal amount (not mean but not being mahatma at the same time )... better feeling or better behaviour !!
I wont say i have always been a giver ..but yeah major times i have been the one helping others.
maybe that's because i have less personal problems ..or less boyfriend issues..and even lesser issues with girlfriends. Not that i don't have problems but not those killing or sleepless nights types of problems..!! And even if i have i never let trifles bring me down.
There have been times when i started believing that people turn to me only in time of need and stress.. and then they might just walk over me.. i have dreaded this , always..!!
Never has happened but i'll make sure it never will happen . I mean we should preach "help others..be selfless " but don't be a fool...be strong enough to draw a line because people are never as sweet/helpless as we assume them to be!! .. Don't do it for them ..rather support them to make them feel that they are strong enough to face their problems !! That it's their life and they know how to deal with it !! That is the best WE can do .. WE cannot spoon feed them !!
But as much as i have helped others i have equally recieved ... i have best of friends who have been with me through my tough times... i have love and support of my parents ..who are genuinely the most understanding people in the whole universe.., love and blessings of grandfather ... the patience and care of elder sister.. and some amazing forever friends and cousins who are there to listen to all my crap..!!
BUT as much as i say that recieving love fills you up and enlightens you ... Giving love and help ..and advices makes me feel much-much stronger , happier and satisfied...!!
It's like being able to complete a task that has been set in front of you and your reward is no noble prize or a lottery but that smile , ease , the tears of joy and that happiness on the face of the person you are helping !! .. That's not something valuable for many.. for me its priceless... something that has it's oown beauty and realism .. !!
Then as i start enjoying the fact that there is some good in the world .. and realise that being good to others is harmless... phuuuf... there is a blow..i slowly realise.. people are not even being grateful enough for the good you do and show their so called "attitude" and "arrogance"..!! I dont ask for personal glory but just some respect which i think not just me but every person who put others before them totally deserve..!!
It has happened many times that after being selfless i have got hurt .. but the truth is i dont care any more , I love to give ... i think it's one of the most essential characteristics that makes me believe that am still HUMAN in this world of opputrtunity grabbers..!! And therefore i demand nothing in return.. not like in a MOTHER TERESA wayy ... but yeaa.. in a BEING HUMAN wayy ... :)
"Why should we expect gratitude in return of small favours or the so called huge favours we do .. when out of the seven lepers Jesus cured ..only 1 stopped to say thank you to JESUS ...!!"
When i read this .. i realised that I am nobody to ask for it .. As much as i believe in living life your way ..and living to the fullest I equally believe in doing good and supporting others and making them feel good about themselves...!! :)
SO i guess For me.. GIVING Is far better then recieving .. or maybe they are equally Important and good.. because without recieving what would i have to give... and therefore like a cycle it goes on. THE MORE I GIVE THE MORE I RECIEVE ... or THE MORE I RECIEVE THE MORE I GIVE .. :)
guess they are both interdependent after all.
So as much as you are open to recieve be open to give... share it with all and one.. make that everlasting place for your good self on this blue earth .. where there is scarcity of joy and everyone craves for love and respect as much as they feast on it!!
have a great day :)

And it dawned upon me...

“Right when you think you don’t need love is the time when you need it the most” … -(Bryan Adams, a little love)
Somehow this line fits the very situation ….
Anyway … what I actually had to say was that I finally realized the difference between “LIKE” and “LOVE”..!!!
“LIKE” is … All the immature infatuations & “obsessions” and when all you do is look out for his favorites and try to make them “your” favorites … without even knowing them and then when that image is flushed – coz you realize that they are not what you thought they really are… you are left alone …”heartbroken” … - and then you curse the person for “entering your life” … and feel betrayed … etc.
But what we never realized is that they never promised us anything …. They never asked us to like them or think of them differently or simply “feel” it for them …!! They were probably themselves all along in their own “life” - living it – with their friends – and what we always overlook is that it might be that our heart “longs” for them but that Brain all along says that “ something is wrong here “..;)
All this never happens in “LOVE” …
When you know the person .. When you feel it for them not because they are "happening" .. or they are all those things that you want them to be.. but because they are themselves....
Because now the heart and the brain direct to that 1 person ... Because everything feels right when you are with them ..and then you realize that everything that you want in "your guy" ... They already HAVE IT ...!!
because now you really don't care if they love you .. all you care about is if they are really happy :)
I know we all want love to be reciprocated but it is never the same .. It is never a fairytale for everyone.!!!
But it could be if you want it to be .. !!
When we LOVE some1 .. REALLY LOVE .. . we stop believing in the quote "LOVE IS BLIND" ...
Coz "true love is not blind .. But sees all the faults and does not mind" .... :)
IT's not the question of since when ? ... it's the question of ...
is this forever ??
Is this the person that would promise me forever ? .. coz i might say that its okay "kissing" in the first week of relationship and it's okay to do it before marriage ... etc
but the TRUTH is I never can do this to myself .. I can never givin until I believe that except that 1 person there is going to be no 1 else..
Now I realise what it meant when some1 said to me . "if not for that person am not gonna get married at all" ..
That same love can never happen again ...
I was talking about "kiss" ... that kiss takes the relationship to another level... - its not a bad thing to kiss - No, it surely is not .. - but it is a part of a relationship not the base of it ... "The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender..because this kiss already has within it that surrender." -Emil Ludwig
How amazingly has he described it all in 1 sentence... And I really believe this .. I might be "modern" but am still respectful of the "first touch"..
I know it's almost impossible to be some1's first and last in today's world.. but if not his first atleast his last ... :)
Gonna end it with my recent favorite ...

" Kabhi-Kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai
ki jaise tu mujhe chahegi umar bhar yunhi
uthegi meri taraf pyaar Ki nazar yunhi
mai jaanta hun ki tu gair hai magar yunhi
mai jaanta hun ki tu gair hai magar yunhi
kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai.. "


HAPPY VALENTINO .. ♥
WITH MUCH LOVE -
-SABURI PANDIT :)

THE 'V' WeEK .. ..♥

We all try defining "LOVE" ....in our own way ...the way we feel it.. the way we want it.....and the way we get it ..

just yesterday i read this - and i found it extremely cute ^_^

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday"...- Noelle, Age 7 (participant in a survey of 4-8 year old's asked to define love )..

Even a 7yr old kid defined love.. and when you get 17 its too damn difficult defining LOVE ... duh !!

As February comes by ...everyone wants someone to be by their side ...to make them feel special ..as its the Valentine month. But is it just 1day or 1month ... or about that 1 hr you spend with them .. ?? Isn't it about lifetime ....that Forever feeling ... that's unquestionable... and undefined.. !!

LOVE .. LOVE .. LOVE ... ♥

LOVE - It means EVERYTHING to me ... I am nothing without LOVE... it completes me .. it makes me ..i accept LOVE in any form .. i believe in LOVE no matter what ...I trust love .. cause the very foundation of my relationships is LOVE ... it is not just valentine's day for me .. it's my life ... its the reason of my being ..its the reason i get through all the ups and the downs ( in particular) ... :)

Don't get me wrong i am in no way against Valentine's day .. no no .. it's undoubtedly .. 1 of the most romantic days ..But only if we promise to make it a special something not just for 1 month .. let every day be valentine's day ♥

This Valentine's ... Some of must be with the one we really love and would never let go of them .. some of us would be with the one who really love us and would never let go of us ... while the lucky ones would be SINGLE ..... and the REALLY LUCKY one's would be with the one's they would never let go of and who in turn would never let them go ...!!

But no matter what .. i really wish ... not just the month of February .. the whole year is filled with LOVE .. as we make our sweethearts feel special THIS month ..... may that love STAY ... & spread all through the year :)

TC =]

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♥ BLISS ♥

When its just me and you
When its all true
When you hold my hand and make no big deal of it
When you want to show that you care and end up
saying nothing more than "take care"
When you simply smile while looking at me,
for no good reason at all
When its raining outside ,and all you want is me
When you care no more ,about what people say
When you shout at me ,for doing something insane
When you hold me to stop me from crying
When you kiss me to say "good night"
When you whisper slightly in my ear "I ♥ U "
When you shout to the world outside
how lucky you feel when I'm with you
When you want to make it up to me
for no fault of your own
When you want me to be right next to you :)
It's BLISS
It's complete BLISS
WHEN I'M WITH YOU !! :)